In a year where life around us has returned to normal, my journey or should I say my journey’s struggles continue. Health anxiety & anxiety is real & living with it mentally is tacking and tiring.
I’ve battled with Covid and won, however the lingering effect it played on my internal organs continues. UTI discovered and resolved, while kidney and liver numbers jumped. UTI kept me from riding my peloton and still does. For folks wondering what exactly health anxiety is or how it plays in daily life here’s an example.. The health anxiety brings a mental fear of if I ride my bike or… exercise I will get another bad UTI. Anyone reading this will say that is ridiculous, medicine is there to clear it.. you know and even I know that, buy the anxiety in my brain puts the fear out there that weighs the rationale that the likely hood of it occurring if you follow specific steps is very…very low.
Other symptoms are going to the doctors or anything associated with drs fearing I will get news I am dying. Even typing that out the anxiety, heart rate goes up, sweating starts and racing thoughts start. Such as we all know we will leave this earth, & I personally believe in Christ, the anxiety takes over and defeats common sense.
Here I am today on a mission to call out to others you are not alone. I see you, I understand you. I am here if you need support. We just don’t seem to have the support we need or enough people in our lives that truly understand our fight. I don’t want to hide my anxieties any longer. I vow to work to over come the fear of rejection from others. The fear that if others know, I will lose them in my life. I vow to help others.
I am working on incorporating geocaching, getting back on my Peloton, and walking again.. Journey and Exploring to me is life.
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